- Went to see the family for the first time in 10 months. Went to the seaside. Walked along a pier. A seagull ate Dad’s ice cream. The sun came out. Normality. Slight relaxation.
- On the way home, a push news alert about a spike in cases in the Llandudno area (which we had just left).
- Great.
- No-one has the ‘rona, thankfully.
- My cousin had never heard of Acorn Antiques! I used this news as an excuse to go back and watch it in all its glory.
- So I’ve been feeling pretty anxious the past couple of weeks and I’ve been trying to unpack why. I am currently picking “Let down syndrome” as the biggest culprit: adrenaline withdrawal.
- After a long time of working on quite an intense programme of work at pace, I’m struggling to slow the pace down.
- The symptoms of let-down effect:
- a strong compulsion to be “doing something” while at home or on vacation
- an obsession with thoughts about what remains undone
- a feeling of vague guilt while resting
- fidgeting, restlessness, pacing, leg kicking or fast gum chewing, and inability to concentrate for very long on any relaxing activity, feelings of irritability and aggravation
- a vague (or somethings profound) feeling of depression whenever you stop an activity.
- Strongly relating to these.
- After a couple of lighter weeks, I’m trying to throw this energy back into exercise and hope the anxiety is just a phase as I adjust to a slightly more normal work pace. Otherwise I’m going to continue to be a pretty difficult person to be around.
- Continuing to hoover Line of Duty. Arnott’s just grown a beard.